I was at college, living in dorms, and the experience—aside from the usual horrifying awkwardness and somewhat spontaneity of the occasion—was completely and utterly unremarkable aside from one thing: the guy I slept with identified as straight.
For me, leaving behind memories of affection is the most important thing.
I know from personal experience as a boy that some boys do welcome personal, even intimate contact with a kind and loving older man.
I'm scared to be near them because of it.
Discreet: A man who is either in a relationship or in denial, and wants sex on the side.
I am not sure why that is.